November 3, 2010

In the Principal's Office

Every Wednesday, we have a staff meeting after school, and just before it began today, my principal asked me to step out with her. Some of you may be familiar with the heart-pounding-in-your-ears feeling that accompanies a trip to the Principal's office, and while I never experienced this as a student, I certainly know the feeling as a teacher.

"Oh, no! What did I do now?" I thought. Even thought I couldn't come up with an answer to this question on my own, the panic had set in.

If past experience has taught me anything, it's that good deeds always go unnoticed and that even innocuous incidents can be turned into something terrible. Maybe this is just my Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder from my last job, but I couldn't help but feel anxious the conversation that was looming.

Much to my surprise, my principal just wanted to touch base with me about my current position to see how I'm feeling. I mentioned yesterday that I wasn't feeling very thankful, and the reason for that is that I was informed by my director that I cannot keep my position for the remainder of the school year. He, too, was disappointed in this news, but his hands are tied because I do not have the proper ELL endorsement to be hired on permanently.

The "carrot that dangled before me" of a secure, full-time job with benefits was snatched away. And it hurts. I'm sad not only for me but for my poor students who will have to endure yet another transition of a new teacher coming into their room. I am especially worried about my newcomer students who will not speak to any adult in the building besides me. It's going to be hard to leave them.

Ok... this post is not meant to be a pity party. What I wanted to write about was how amazing it was for my principal to take the time to sit down with me and express (once again) how wonderful of a job she thinks I've been doing here. She told me she wishes I could stay all year, and we discussed the possibility of me taking on a maternity leave for colleague. She even told me she would hire me on the spot if she could (the job isn't posted yet, though, so it would be illegal). She told me that not only have I done a great job with my students, but that she is confident in my ability to be a great teacher to any group. I cannot tell you how reassuring that was to hear!

So, today, I am extremely grateful to have an encouraging and supportive administration in my building - this is only one example of how great they've been t work for. It is a tremendously welcomed change after what I experienced in my old building... the whole climate of the school is different.

I'm thankful to have earned a favorable place in the eyes of an new administrator, who has offered to write me a much-needed letter of recommendation. And thankful that this position has reminded me that I am a great asset to any school.

2 comments:

  1. How nice that your principal (who I'm sure is extremely busy!) took the time to do this! And Erin I am certain you are a great asset to any building you work in :)

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  2. Thanks, girl! Hopefully some administrator out there will agree enough to give me a job! :)

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