July 29, 2011

Pity Party

I spent way too much time this week having a pity party for myself.

And the irony is that I have so much that makes me happy.  I have the best friends and family a girl can ask for. Seriously! The people in my life fill my days with laughter and love, and I couldn't be more grateful for that. I have a home and roommate I love. I'm healthy - healthier, in fact than I've been in a long, long time. I have money in the bank (even if more is coming out than going in these days).  So, in all these areas of my life, I would say I'm happier than ever before.

But every single time someone asks me what I do for a living, another small part of me dies.

"I'm a teacher," I tell them.

"Oh, really?  Where?" they always ask.

"Well," I hesitate, "that's a good question."

It's nearly August, and the only interview I've had was in a district that won't hire me because I'm too educated. I'm getting devastatingly close to another year of subbing, and it breaks my heart because I want my own classroom so badly!

So there were some tears. And there was some sulking. 

And then Rachel came over last night, and we made guacamole and lowfat peanut butter banana bread. We watched Romy and Michelle's High School Reunion with Tom (because Rachel had never seen it, and an intervention was necessary). And even though it's not exactly a thought-provoking movie, it reminded me that the relationships I have in my life are way more important than my job title or relationship status. I'm holding on to that thought today.

On a semi-related note, Saturday is National Dance Day, and since I am dedicated to celebrating all national holidays, I'm going to teach myself my part in this routine:

4 comments:

  1. I'm sorry :(

    I really dislike the ? "What do you do?" in general. For a lot of reasons.

    Heard this song on the radio today, it struck a chord with me and I just was looking it up tonight and in another window reading through my reader of blogs and felt like maybe you'd like it too. "Everything you do, do it for His glory." Even if that's subbing and Zumba. And dancing!! :)

    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FEqdDdvFXZ0&feature=related

    Have a happy weekend, Erin!

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