September 9, 2012

Cooling Off

This past week, I feel like I hit my breaking point. Since moving here, we've been hit with one thing after another, and my stress level is at an all time high. I've cried more in the past few months than I have in the past few years.

The company Babe has been contracting for is super shady. He's had it out with the owner on a weekly (okay, sometimes daily) basis about the illegal practices and money missing from his paychecks. This guy owes Babe so much money, it makes me want to scream. And now he's being "punished" for sticking up for himself by not being given any work. Obviously, this is a huge financial stress on us, but even more concerning, to me, is the fact that it's put Babe into a funk that he can't seem to shake.

After months of trying to make this work, and too long of giving the owner the benefit of the doubt, Babe has resigned to the fact that it's time for a new job.

I'm sad for him. I'm angry for him. I'm worried for us (not about our relationship... just about paying our bills).

All this stress just emphasizes the fact that I am so homesick for my family, my friends, my pets... everything. Life has been so much harder since moving down here.

And to top it all off, I logged into Facebook on Friday to read dozens of status updates about all things Fall happening in Chicago: beautiful, cool weather; pumpkin farms opening; apple picking; German Fest (aka: North Park Reunion); and the start of the Chicago Bears season.

My favorite time of year in that beautiful city, and I'm missing it all!

The tears... oh, the tears.

And then, I woke up this morning, with Babe by my side, and saw on my iPhone that the weather was a beautiful 63 degrees. I'm not kidding when I say I couldn't tell you another day when the weather has been below scorching down here (even in the rain)... I seriously hate going outside because I melt in the heat.

"OMG! We have to have breakfast on the patio!" I excitedly declared. And he instantly agreed.

So we did. We sat outside (and I got to wear a sweatshirt!!!) and enjoyed our coffee, eggs, and music. We relaxed out there together for about three hours, which was only possible because he didn't have that stupid job to go to today. It was Heavenly.

And it was a good reminder that even through all the stress, I have my best friend and biggest supporter by my side. Our relationship is stronger through each tribulation we face, and I think that's a huge testimony to the strength of our love and commitment.


God knew I needed today. It was just enough rejuvenation to get me through this next week.

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