May 15, 2014

Pity Party For One

I'm having a little bit of a pity party today, so I apologize in advance for my whining. If you don't want to be part of this party, you totally have my permission to skip my blog. I just needed a place to share my thoughts.

I found out yesterday through the grapevine that my principal filled all three positions in my school for next year. This information hasn't been formally announced, but there's a SPED teacher who is being transferred to an elementary school who requested one of the ELA openings in an effort to stay. She was denied and told the positions were filled on Monday.

I wasn't even granted an interview.

I never even received a response to the personal email I sent to my principal back in March about the openings.

In the past 24 hours, I have gone through a gamut of emotions. It's an understatement to say I feel slighted. I'm sad, frustrated, angry... no, I'm pissed!

I've worked my ass off this year trying to prove myself worthy of a teaching position in this school. I've taken on more responsibility than required on the TAs because I'm a certified teacher. They've used me for testing and small group instruction. Another TA and I have taught a class this entire semester because our students weren't able to follow the curriculum. I created and left behind a binder of modified work for future classes. I've taken on the responsibility of students who are not on my case load. I've graded papers, taken over for teachers in their absence, and even planned and taught whole-class lessons.

I've done much of this without being asked because it was necessary for our students. And sometimes, I've been asked to do these things (testing, small group instruction) because I'm certified. Do I get any extra pay for these things? No. Any acknowledgement from administration? No.

Above all, I'm angry at myself for turning down a teaching position for this. I had such high hopes that this would be the stepping stone I needed to get into this district, but now I know this is not the case.

I don't blame my AP who hired me (and encouraged me with stories of many TAs being hired in the district last year). I know he would have given me an interview if he were in charge of hiring. But I'm extremely frustrated with my principal. Mostly because she couldn't even bother to acknowledge me.

Lost. This is the best word to describe how I feel. I know it would be foolish to come back for another year. If she didn't interview me this year, she's not going to interview me next year or the year after that. Staying here would be a waste of time. And I can't afford it.

So, now that my hope for next year has been shattered, I have to concentrate even more on those stupid online applications that no one reads. It feels like I'm fighting an uphill battle... lots of work for no return. Getting interviews in the Chicagoland area is incredibly hard. It's all about who you know.

And silly me... I thought this year was going to help me "know" the right people.

12 comments:

  1. I Love You....chin up...get on those applications. Drop them off in person. Call schools and ask for an interview. Be aggresive. Rent a billboard. Go, go, go! Sending you hugs across the interwebs. XOXOOXX
    Alison

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  2. I'm so sorry that you have been overlooked. Politics are the worst - decisions are made on who you know rather than your qualifications. I would be upset, too. I just hope your principal is brave enough to tell you in person and offer you an explanation. So upsetting...

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  3. This is such a stressful time of year! There is crap like that going on around here too. So sorry. I bet something awesome will come your way...
    -Lisa
    Grade 4 Buzz

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  4. I'm fuming for you!!!! That is so freakin' piss poor!! (excuse my kiwiisms....) Grrr that is redonkulous, she should have at the very least given you an interview, if for no other reason than to simply acknowledge that you are qualified for the position!!!
    While I hate the way that my principal has (quite often) not rehired some fixed term teachers back at the end of the year in the hopes of getting someone else, at least she always gives everyone currently working in the school an interview!

    I wish you all the best in your search for the perfect school.

    Erin
    Learning to be awesome

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  5. I'm so sorry you're going through this. I agree with Susan; politics ARE the worst, and it's rampant in education. The only ray of light I can see is that at least you know beyond a shadow of a doubt that this principal is NOT one for whom you want to work.

    Here's to finding one who will give you the respect and support you so richly deserve!

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  6. i am soory to read your story, but keep in mind you are great and a better place for you will appear

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  7. AGH!! I'm mad for you!! I'm so sorry!! I will be praying that something comes up and works out in your favor Erin!!

    And hey, there's always Minnesota!! :) I know people!! :)

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  8. Boo! HISS! You have a ton to offer! Sorry to hear someone else can't see the awesomeness right under their nose!
    Michele
    Coffee Cups and Lesson Plans

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  9. So sorry. You have every right to be mad, angry, pissed, upset. They made a bad call. I think your decision made a BAD decison, which makes me think they are not the right administrator to work for. I am pulling for you! Hit the ground running and don't look back! Hugs to you!

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  10. I would recommend a couple of things. Ask your principal if you can meet to discuss what you can do to strengthen your candidacy in this or any other district. I would also go onto school district websites for all the schools you'd love to work for and look at the faculty lists. See if there are any familiar names; if so, contact them directly and attach a copy of your resume. Work every angle you can until you find a job you love. Good luck!
    Marion

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  11. Oh, I'm so sorry....I'm freakin' mad for you!! As I read this post, I found myself relating more and more to you. I'd like to ask permission to join your pity party. I, too, have been going through crap the past 2 weeks with certain members of my staff and w/ my principal. It has left me livid and hurt and disappointed, especially w/ my principal who didn't even ACKNOWLEDGE my email regarding the problem. Didn't even mention he got the damn email! I called the union and they agreed wholeheartedly that the least he could have done is ACKNOWLEDGED the email. So I feel for you when you said yours didn't either.

    I wish you much luck trying to find a new job. Take that anger and use it to fuel yourself into a contracted position. Your mantra can be "Watch me soar." Make them feel regretful for not hiring you. ; )

    Ali
    Teaching Powered by Caffeine

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  12. Sounds like the biggest bag-over-the-head, punch-in-the-face I ever heard...for some reason I couldn't resist with that line. Anyways regardless I feel for you, such a shitty way to be treated by an employer after feeling like you have worked your butt off. I would talk to the principal, to determine what it is they were looking for and look for another school, at least they will know why they are losing a great employee. And there is always Austin....sending hugs!!!

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